What does it feel like?

what does it feel like to know that a person you care for cares back for you as much as you do?

this is a question i do not know.

i truly would like to know however because that is one thing i feel like i have not truly yet experienced.

working at a flower shop i see people come in and out buying flowers for their loved ones and i cant help but to get jealous because i have all the flowers i could ever want and yet i have no one to give it to.

im not crying for a relationship or anything like that haha

if it happens it happens if it happens it doesnt.

Ive just grown very curious in my past 17 years what it is like to care for someone that will care for you back. its a feeling i with to experience in my life.

nohomo.

No one actually cares lol

What defines care?

To me its correlates with love.

But then that leaves the question of, what the fuck is love?

When u love something you have a passion for it. It drives you to do things you never seemed possible and no matter how physically, mentally, emotionally destroyed u get, you stick with.

if you care for something you should love it 100%. No questions asked. If you care about something you do everything, and act in any way possible to prevent any damage from the thing you care about.

I don’t believe there can be different degrees on how much you care about different topics cause if you don’t care 100% it’s just bull shit.

If some one cheats you I don’t believe that person ever cared about u. how can someone who cheated on you care for you? It doesn’t make any sense. At all.

If your late to class, and say your sorry, your not really sorry, your just trying to soften up the teacher so u don’t get in as much trouble. In reality you honestly don’t give a shit.

If you lie to someone. You don’t care for them cause if you lie, the person you lied to is not your priority cause the there was a motive of why you lied. That motive is your priority. Deeming you don’t 100% care about that person.

Caring to me is more powerful then love and is taken for granted by a lot of people.

Of course, this just my opionion.

Trapt (Oct 13, 2009)

There comes a day in every mans life
Where all the emotions you have
Will get to you all at once.

You wont know when or why you feel the way you do
The only clue you have is constant thoughts cycling through your head
As you look to perform something rash
That you wouldn’t do sober.

Your locked in a cold hard room
Trapped for how ever long you want it to last,
But for some reason you don’t want it to end
So it goes on and on and on until your physically give in.

Baggy lids and sour heart
You constantly search for an answer
Until you realize there is no answer
And you just sit there like an idiot
But the feeling won’t go away.

You consider alcohol and drugs
And joke about killing yourself
And you feel like a loser
Trapped in a world with normal people.

You ask yourself what you want in life.
Money, education, success,
Respect, friends, sex
Love, drugs, a new opportunity
And the truth lies in all of them
Yet you feel like your being lied to.

All your life you’ve been lieing to yourself
Helplessly trying to fit in
And trying to change yourself for the good of yourself
And constantly think other will adore you more.
But the day will come when you will lose your companions
And in the back of your mind a part of your heart will perish
Never to return, even if you make up for it.

This hole we call life holds no answers
Because there is no right answer
And yet you are stranded out in the abyss
Looking for answer

you find escapes to make us content
Where its to cry, to smoke pot
To cut our wrist, to curse out loud
To make a hole in the wall, or just to lie to yourself that you don’t care.
In the end, you lie helplessly with out anyone to pick us back up.

You only get to live your life once so why live it?
Do you achieve glory when you die?
Do people care when you die?
Of course they maybe sad
But breaking my cell phone makes me sad but you don’t see me organizing a funeral.

We are only mortal
Trying to live the life we believe is right,
Even if that life is influenced by the affect of what others might say
It is still how you chose to live your life

You complain about things not going your way
Even when a lot of things are
But the things you don’t have tends to be more important
Then the ones you do have
Until you get it.
But when you don’t get it, it sinks in your throat
Leaving a bad disgusting taste.

Why is God tormenting me?
This is a question I shouldn’t ask but sometimes you cant help but to ask
He loves me yes I know for the bible tells me so
But you ask why me? Why did you pick me to go through this?
Then you look out side to the rest of the world and realize
That the rest of the world has it harder
Then you shut your mouth and get back to work

Life isn’t about girls,
Yet sometimes you make it seem like it,
Then you believe it is about girls,
And then you don’t know what your priorities are.

A body is mortal, and will diminish once our time is up.
But it can diminish before your time is up.
As you make decisions in life
That allows you to walk around the earth lifelessly.

Trapped in a world with so many things to think about
You should get out.

Kids These Days

Life isn’t all about having fun. It is about earning the privilege of having fun. So many kids today feel as if the world revolves around them. Fun should NEVER be a priority in ones mind. If Fun becomes your number one priority, nothing will work out. Above all else if anything Family should come first. You aren’t going to know most of the people you hang out in high school when your older. Your family will be with you forever so you build healthy relations with them.

Good grades doesn’t mean SHIT. This does not mean grades do not matter for your future. I am saying it matters because a lot of times the way you act towards your family is affected by your grades. Just cause you get your shit done, and get good grades, does not mean you can do whatever you want. 4.5 GPA my ass. If you get that grade and think you can do whatever you want and always get mad at your parents for being to “strict” and don’t build a relation with your family for the future, your fucked. You really are. Getting good grades should be a privilege to have on top of stuff you are already supposed to be doing, not a reason to do anything you want. Parents honestly know best and although you may not agree with them, you will find out when you do listen to them, it will actually help you out.

Often times your parents will yell at you for things you deem as “unnecessary” or “over reacting”. You should always think of it as a privilege to have a figure that cares about your future so much that they take time out of their lives to try and make you a better person. Although sometimes it can seem like to much, its better to just listen and take what they tell you and do what you can then just to ignore and rebel.

Obviously we all keep secrets from our parents but that’s the way it should be for certain things. We as the youth of the nation learn from our mistakes and should be able to live our own lives, but listening to parents about basic rules will help you in the long run. Things are easy to start when you’re caught up in the moment. Drinking, pot, and all that, and it’s not a terrible offence to do them, but you don’t always have to rush into it. You always have to tell yourself in the back of your head and say, “How will this affect the rest of my life?” because everyone needs to remember that they got their whole life ahead of them.

As Youths, we try to act like adults, but in reality no one is an adult. No one pays for their own house bills or earns enough money to do so. Even people will jobs in high school get jobs in order to please their parents who nag them. I am not saying this is always the case. But a lot of times it is.

There are so many spoiled kids ciphering off their parents money not giving a shit about their lives always having fun. Its sad to see. And because they don’t care you always find them complaining about how their life sucks. Well your life doesn’t suck and you can live again if you try. All you need to do is try.